points on the board and give our defense a break.The Browns, by contrast, blew a big lead last week. They led Baltimore 20-0 after less than 10 minutes, but didnt score again and lost 25-20.To be a real successful team, you have to finish, Jackson said. That is something that we can learn.HOW LOUD? T

On the afternoon of May 5, 1955, R.H. Red McDaniel saddled a horse named Aptos in the sixth race at Golden Gate Fields, climbed into his cream-colored Cadillac and made a hasty retreat to the nearby San Francisco-Oakland Bay Bridge. When he reached the high point of the span, he pulled his car to a stop, walked without hesitation to the vertiginous rail, and promptly jumped to his death.McDaniel was 44 at the time and well on his way to a sixth straight national championship. He left no suicide note behind, only riddles whose interpretations ranged from gangsters to gastrointestinal ulcers.Many of McDaniels colleagues believed that an excess of extremely hard work may have exacted a terrible toll, wrote John McEvoy in Great Horse Racing Mysteries: True Tales From the Track. Others suspected cancer, depression, or the final, successful gesture in a series of attempts to do himself fatal harm.McDaniels body was recovered from San Francisco Bay not long after he jumped with a stopwatch and parimutuel tickets in his pockets. Aptos had won his race. The trainer was relatively young, and the game was his oyster, bending to his genius with the condition book and his regular use of the preternaturally talented jockey Willie Lee Shoemaker. McDaniel had everything to live for, as the wisdom goes, but it wasnt enough.There are few things more private than suicide. Maybe nothing. Albert Camus wrote, There is but one truly serious philosophical problem, and that is suicide.The lobby for the right to end ones own life in certain circumstances is strong, with compelling philosophical support. On the other hand, Ive always leaned toward the reaction of the Tom Hanks title character in Joe vs. the Volcano, when a mysterious girl asks Why not? to the idea of suicide.Because some things take care of themselves, Joe says. Theyre not your job; maybe theyre not even your business.Then again, Ive never had my heart ripped apart by the death of a 2-year-old colt making only the second start of his career after a maiden win that had the business buzzing from coast to coast. The Chilli Man, a son of the Tapit stallion Trappe Shot and trained by Monique Snowden, was heavily favored to win the Emerald Express last Sunday at Emerald Downs. He was then to be sold by owner Heidi Nelson to Dean Reeves of Mucho Macho Man fame. Reevess trainer, Kathy Ritvo, was on hand at Emerald to receive her exciting new shooter.But then, barely a quarter of a mile into the 5-1/2-furlong race under jockey Joe Steiner, The Chilli Mans left foreleg gave way at the ankle. With both sesamoids fractured and the supporting tissue ruptured, The Chilli Man could not be saved.He was just a really good-looking horse, and so very impressive in his first race, Ritvo said Tuesday on her way to Saratoga. It was a terrible tragedy what happened to him. But then, what happened afterwards, there are no words.Ritvo had trouble saying it out loud. A few hours after The Chilli Man was euthanized, his trainer apparently drove to the rugged Green River Gorge north of the town of Enumclaw, Wash., walked to the middle of the bridge spanning the chasm, and jumped to her death. Monique Snowden was 37.Red McDaniel was from Enumclaw.By all accounts, Snowden and her horses were inseparable. She had been training her own stable for only a few years, but the results had been promising.We all know this is a game of incredible highs and lows, said Vince Bruun, Emerald Downs director of media relations. Monique seemed to take the highs higher and the lows lower. You can understand that. What you cant understand is why she did what she did and how much pain she must have been in.When it comes to the subject of suicide, Ritvo demurred.Its probably unfair of me to speak about it, she said. I spent six months or longer fighting every day for my life, to get healthy.Ritvo battled through most of 2008 while suffering from a deterioration of the heart muscle and awaiting a transplant operation required to save her life. Five years after the successful heart transplant, she saddled the 5-year-old Mucho Macho Man to win the Breeders Cup Classic at Santa Anita.For me, every day is a good one, Ritvo said. When something like that happens with a horse, any horse, its a tragedy, but you have to pick up the pieces and keep going. I wish there was something that could have intervened between the time that everything went down with the horse and what happened later. When things go wrong, I try to find a lesson out of it and move forward. But its hard to find a lesson out of any of this.The dots of Red McDaniels suicide were tough to connect. He had it all and jumped anyway. Still, it is probably a mistake to be content with the idea that the death of The Chilli Man caused the death of Monique Snowden. He might have driven her to the bridge, but as for what came next, who knows? Steiner, a veteran who has seen it all, is among many in the Washington racing family hurting for answers.The night of the race, I put my arms around her and said, Just breathe, Monique, said Steiner. Youll get through this. Well get through this.All I can take away from what happened is to be grateful for every day, for my wife and my little boy, Steiner added. And how important it is to pay attention to each other and recognize the signs when someone close to us might need our help. Whether they ask for it or not.Custom Baseball Jerseys Online . 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Here are things to know about this weeks only matchup between 0-2 teams:BACKUP PLAN: The Dolphins gave up 465 yards to an offense led by Garoppolo and Brissett, including 326 passing. But those backups had a much better supporting cast than Kessler has.We are not getting dragged under, I promise you that, Browns first-year coach Hue Jackson said. We are going to keep fighting. This is so early in the season. I would probably feel a little bit different and I might be hanging from the rafters up here if this was Week 14 or something and all this was going on, but it is early.If it wasnt bad enough that Jackson had to rush his third-round draft pick into the QB spot before he was truly ready, Kessler lost his top target when rookie wide receiver Corey Coleman broke his hand in practice Wednesday. After being slowed by a hamstring injury in training camp, Coleman was beginning to show signs of being a dependable playmaker. He had two touchdowns last week against Baltimore and has given Cleveland a deep threat while the team awaits former Pro Bowler Josh Gordon to return from a four-game suspension for numerous drug violations.The loss of Coleman could mean more touches for Terrelle Pryor, the quarterback turned receiver, who seems to get better every time he takes the field.GROUNDED: Quarterback Ryan Tannehill is the Dolphins leading rusher, which shows how bad their ground game has been.Miami runningg backs have combined for 82 yards in 25 carries (3.dddddddddddd3 average), while Tannehill has 52 yards in 11 attempts (4.7 average). With Arian Foster hobbled by a groin injury, second-year pro Jay Ajayi is likely to make his first NFL start.We need to do a better job, Ajayi said. This week is going to be a week for us to make that statement. We can be downhill guys.FALLING BEHIND: Slow starts have been a problem for the Dolphins, especially on offense. In the first half they have yet to manage a touchdown while being outscored 30-6.The last two weeks, as an offense, weve hurt our defense by not getting them off the field early in games, Tannehill said. It has come back to bite us at the end of the games. So we need to move the ball early, get points on the board and give our defense a break.The Browns, by contrast, blew a big lead last week. They led Baltimore 20-0 after less than 10 minutes, but didnt score again and lost 25-20.To be a real successful team, you have to finish, Jackson said. That is something that we can learn.HOW LOUD? The game will be the Dolphins first chance to turn up the volume in their renovated stadium .A $500 million renovation includes a canopy that protects fans from the sun and is expected to make the stadium louder. The Dolphins only previous appearance under the canopy was a sparsely attended exhibition game, but Sundays game is a sellout.ROAD WEARY: The Browns are in a stretch of playing three road games in four weeks, hardly an ideal way for a team to break in 16 rookies or get off to a good start. And even after they return home on Oct. 9 to host New England in Bradys return from his Deflategate suspension, the Browns will play their next two games on the road, giving them five in the first seven weeks.---AP Sports Writer Tom Withers in Cleveland contributed to this report.---AP NFL website: www.pro32.ap.org and http://twitter.com/AP-NFL---Follow Steven Wine on Twitter: http://twitter.com/Steve-Wine. His work can be found at http://bigstory.ap.org/content/steven-wine ' ' '